I have to apologize. Severely.

ZanderX · #1 02-27-2002, 08:38 AM

You all know who I am. I just want to say I'm horribly sorry.

In the past months...well, quite a few months anyways, ever since I became overly active here on the forums and on Graal, I've been rather mean.

I've told people to "falloffacliffanddie". I've told people to slit their wrists, told people they're worthless, called them retarded, et. al.

I have to apologize for all of that.

I was sitting down reading through some old logs and saved pages that I have of "victories". I've deleted them now. I acted like, up until even today, an ******* to a lot of people simply because I thought they were stupid, and I said things that should never have been said.

Rude things, mean things, things which I shouldn't have said. I'm sorry for saying any of it.

Honorable apologies go to the following people, regardless of whether or not they still read the forums or even play Graal:

Shadrock - I've said some things to you and behind your back that I shouldn't have. I'm sorry.

Soul Blade - The same goes to you. Countless are the times that I've made rampaging insults to your face and behind your back. I should respect your opinion, I'm sorry.

Jerom - Oh, the times I had insulting you. They were fun at the time, I regret it now even though you're gone.

Asuka - Hey guy. I remember the arguments we had over many things, I'm sorry for being an ass.

Googi - You are stupid, but I'm going to stop following you around and flaming you; it's just not right and I'm sorry I've been doing it.

ninjaterd - I hate your guts, but that's no reason for me to have said what I once said to you. I'm sorry.

I don't want to go into much else because I'll get emotional. To put it bluntly, if I left anyone out, which I know for a fact I did, consider my apology extended to you, tenfold.

-Kamuii.

Yeah, I posted this in Main and Not Graal because some people I addressed in this don't read Main.

Faheria_GP2 · #2 02-27-2002, 08:38 AM

does this include me :o

ZanderX · #3 02-27-2002, 08:41 AM

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Originally posted by Faheria_GP2
does this include me :o

It includes anyone I've ever insulted.

If I insulted you, Supersonic, I'm sorry. I won't do it again.

I'm going to refrain from insulting people or even making nasty remarks about them at all.

_0AfTeRsHoCk0_ · #4 02-27-2002, 08:47 AM

Neat, Vermain must have made this a sticky

Griffyn · #5 02-27-2002, 08:48 AM

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Originally posted by _0AfTeRsHoCk0_
Neat, Vermain must have made this a sticky

i noticed that too...

ZanderX · #6 02-27-2002, 08:48 AM

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Originally posted by _0AfTeRsHoCk0_
Neat, Vermain must have made this a sticky

I asked him to.

I don't want it to go away; I want it to stay until everyone has seen it, everyone knows that I am sorry.

Faheria_GP2 · #7 02-27-2002, 08:49 AM

vermain wouldn't make me a sticky if I asked him

Phenom1K · #8 02-27-2002, 08:53 AM

I've heard this before Kamuii, why should I trust you this time?

ZanderX · #9 02-27-2002, 08:55 AM

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Originally posted by Phenom1K
I've heard this before Kamuii, why should I trust you this time?

Because the time before I was pressured into doing it by other people. I never meant it at all.

This time is different. I understand that text cannot accurately convey emotions, but I wish it could, because then I could help you understand...

Phenom1K · #10 02-27-2002, 08:58 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

Because the time before I was pressured into doing it by other people. I never meant it at all.

This time is different. I understand that text cannot accurately convey emotions, but I wish it could, because then I could help you understand...

I'll believe your text when I see you act it, Kamuii.

ZanderX · #11 02-27-2002, 09:00 AM

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Originally posted by Phenom1K

I'll believe your text when I see you act it, Kamuii.

Then I will prove myself and my good intentions to you, and to everyone else.

Sir_Gareth · #12 02-27-2002, 09:04 AM

kewl respect +15356258062158612586235821365123..

fenderbender2965 · #13 02-27-2002, 09:06 AM

Kamuii = + respect X 2

Beowulf2 · #14 02-27-2002, 09:10 AM

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Originally posted by fenderbender2965
Kamuii = + respect X 2

That made no sense.

Graal518 · #15 02-27-2002, 09:16 AM

Hmm I don't know, Kamuii was quite nice to me when he flamed me, he was like "Hi Xerpheir, no offense but you're being stupid" and went on with his point. (This happened once and was on a particular thread I posted.) I had no idea he acted this way towards others, possibly because up until a few weeks ago I've been gone for 5 months.

ZanderX · #16 02-27-2002, 09:18 AM

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Originally posted by Graal518
Hmm I don't know, Kamuii was quite nice to me when he flamed me, he was like "Hi Xerpheir, no offense but you're being stupid" and went on with his point. (This happened once and was on a particular thread I posted.) I had no idea he acted this way towards others, possibly because up until a few weeks ago I've been gone for 5 months.

I see your point.

But even so, I look back on it and even that doesn't seem right. So I'm still sorry for saying that.

Googi · #17 02-27-2002, 09:21 AM

Umm, I read it, and 24 hours ago I might have cared.

Graal518 · #18 02-27-2002, 09:22 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

I see your point.

But even so, I look back on it and even that doesn't seem right. So I'm still sorry for saying that.

That's OK, I took no offense to it at all. Thought it was a welcomed change to the other responses such as "DIE KTHXBAI!"
Or simply something like "*****".

(Note that I have no respect whatsoever for people who talk like this. Save Kamuii because he has obviously reconsiled (Sp?) )

ZanderX · #19 02-27-2002, 09:24 AM

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Originally posted by Googi
Umm, I read it, and 24 hours ago I might have cared.

I'm sorry that you're oriented in such a way. At least I made my apology to you, whether you forgive me or not. I respect your opinion nonetheless. Thank you for showing me that you read this.

Asuka · #20 02-27-2002, 09:30 AM

He's sucking up for something.

ZanderX · #21 02-27-2002, 09:32 AM

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Originally posted by Asuka
He's sucking up for something.

That really hurts.

Like I said to JR...I'll prove to you and everyone else that my intentions are true. I am not as heartless as people make me out to be...

Graal518 · #22 02-27-2002, 09:32 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

I'm sorry that you're oriented in such a way. At least I made my apology to you, whether you forgive me or not. I respect your opinion nonetheless. Thank you for showing me that you read this.

Well if you're not going to say it, I will. Googi has been making that idiotic response lately and I hate it.

Faheria_GP2 · #23 02-27-2002, 09:35 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

That really hurts.

Like I said to JR...I'll prove to you and everyone else that my intentions are true. I am not as heartless as people make me out to be...

I believe you Kamuii, you seem to be making a wholehearted apology...and I'm glad for it, we can all change for the better if we apply ourselves to it.

Googi · #24 02-27-2002, 09:36 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

I'm sorry that you're oriented in such a way. At least I made my apology to you, whether you forgive me or not. I respect your opinion nonetheless. Thank you for showing me that you read this.

No, I forgave everyone about 6 hours ago.

Asuka · #25 02-27-2002, 09:36 AM

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Originally posted by ZanderX

That really hurts.

Like I said to JR...I'll prove to you and everyone else that my intentions are true. I am not as heartless as people make me out to be...

Nah i just don't believe you would do such a thing so half hazardly. I mean I made up a gimmick where i actually liked Lycia so that i coud get something out of it. Guess what happened? This beautiful actor played the part and lycia bought it. Then i got my little gift out of it. W00T W00T. I don't think you would apologize for everything you did for no reason at all.

ZanderX · #26 02-27-2002, 09:36 AM

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Originally posted by Faheria_GP2

I believe you Kamuii, you seem to be making a wholehearted apology...and I'm glad for it, we can all change for the better if we apply ourselves to it.

Thank you for understanding and trusting me.

ZanderX · #27 02-27-2002, 09:37 AM

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Originally posted by Asuka

Nah i just don't believe you would do such a thing so half hazardly. I mean I made up a gimmick where i actually liked Lycia so that i coud get something out of it. Guess what happened? This beautiful actor played the part and lycia bought it. Then i got my little gift out of it. W00T W00T. I don't think you would apologize for everything you did for no reason at all.

If you would like, Asuka, I will state all of my reasons, plain and simple for you. I would have no trouble doing so if it would prove myself to you.

Asuka · #28 02-27-2002, 09:39 AM

Sure why not. I've been sick for 3 days, i could use a good laugh. Even though its impossible for me to actually laugh in my current state.

Faheria_GP2 · #29 02-27-2002, 09:39 AM

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Originally posted by Asuka

Nah i just don't believe you would do such a thing so half hazardly. I mean I made up a gimmick where i actually liked Lycia so that i coud get something out of it. Guess what happened? This beautiful actor played the part and lycia bought it. Then i got my little gift out of it. W00T W00T. I don't think you would apologize for everything you did for no reason at all.

there are many reasons people will apoligize without these motives

religion, guilt, desire for peace, etc.

ZanderX · #30 02-27-2002, 09:45 AM

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Originally posted by Asuka
Sure why not. I've been sick for 3 days, i could use a good laugh. Even though its impossible for me to actually laugh in my current state.

As you wish. I find what you say to be more than a little disheartening, but I am not going to stop simply because two people refuse to accept my graciously offered apologies.
[list=1][*]My life has been in a serious turmoil lately. Many personal problems.[*]I look back on things sometimes, in extreme retrospect, and wonder...was it right to do that?[*]My conscience.[*]I recently got into a number of fights with close friends and it made me realize I'm not as nice as I thought I was.[/list=1]

Those are only a few reasons. They are all personal. If you can't understand or accept them, that is fine. I have no ulterior motive for making this apology.

Valder · #31 02-27-2002, 09:50 AM

It's ok Symon, I love you <3

gozen · #32 02-27-2002, 09:54 AM

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Originally posted by Valder
It's ok Symon, I love you <3

uh-oh, just kidding

Asuka · #33 02-27-2002, 10:04 AM

Gah why did you bring the homosexuality issue to this board. Let me think... we've had racial issues, retarded issues, and now homosexuality issues. Whats next pedofile issues, molestation? Gah anyways back on track. Your case is like many others kamuii. You get under a lot of stress. Decide that you've had enough and you take back everything you've ever did in a 5 year period. Then when the stress is gone, you decide that what you just said was the stress talking and you take it all back. Hrrm lets see if i can think of an example...... give me a copious amount of time and i'll get back to you on that. My head hurts like hell and i keep coughing.

Googi · #34 02-27-2002, 10:05 AM

Well, I believe Kamuii.

feivel · #35 02-27-2002, 10:07 AM

I would like to apply a personal qoute that i forumlated.

I cannot accept your apology for their is no need for you to apologise. I have done the same many times, and from making these mistakes you are now better then before.

that is slightly altered from: I cannot accept your apology for their is no need for you to apologise, its not your fault. (also formulated by me.)

Anyway Kamuii i understand completely. It happens to all of us. It has happened between me and alot of my friends, I have done it to my friends just when i thought they were doing something intentionally to be mean, when really they had a good reason.
I have done it to Dante on many occasions, onlly to be researching to prove myself, and noticed how much of a Jackass i had been. Anyway I think we resolved our conflicting weeks ago,
but as i said, i bear no grudge, and I am pleased that you have publicly apologized or whatever, even though according to my qoute, no apology was neede, or something like that lol

Googi · #36 02-27-2002, 10:09 AM

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Originally posted by feivel
I would like to apply a personal qoute that i forumlated.

I cannot accept your apology for their is no need for you to apologise. I have done the same many times, and from making these mistakes you are now better then before.

that is slightly altered from: I cannot accept your apology for their is no need for you to apologise, its not your fault. (also formulated by me.)

Anyway Kamuii i understand completely. It happens to all of us. It has happened between me and alot of my friends, I have done it to my friends just when i thought they were doing something intentionally to be mean, when really they had a good reason.
I have done it to Dante on many occasions, onlly to be researching to prove myself, and noticed how much of a Jackass i had been. Anyway I think we resolved our conflicting weeks ago,
but as i said, i bear no grudge, and I am pleased that you have publicly apologized or whatever, even though according to my qoute, no apology was neede, or something like that lol

...The reason he appoligized is cause he was feeling guilty.

feivel · #37 02-27-2002, 10:14 AM

Now that Kamuii is done, its my turn to call you stupid Googi.
I know why he was apologizing stoopit! (yes i intentionall spelled that wrong.) I didnt say i dont know why he was apologizing, I said he does not NEED to. Bah i just put in some kinda expression, why must you bother me *^%{(

Googi · #38 02-27-2002, 10:19 AM

No, Kamuii needs to appoligize but we don't need to be appoligized to.

feivel · #39 02-27-2002, 10:23 AM

No your wrong again

:P
Kamuii does not need to apologize, but it is good for him to apologize. He also need not apologize to us if he apologized, rather a general apology for his actions to no specific person fits the circumstances.

(I just totally confuse-edifyed myself o_0)

Lycia · #40 02-27-2002, 10:59 AM

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Originally posted by Asuka

Nah i just don't believe you would do such a thing so half hazardly. I mean I made up a gimmick where i actually liked Lycia so that i coud get something out of it. Guess what happened? This beautiful actor played the part and lycia bought it. Then i got my little gift out of it. W00T W00T. I don't think you would apologize for everything you did for no reason at all.

And I'm sure a person would just LOVE to know how you schemed your way into that "gift."

Who knows? Maybe you were doing it to that person also.

At any rate, . . . .

Kamuii, don't worry about it too much. Most of the people on these boards are heartless bastards, and only want popularity so they insult people just to prove they are "oh-so great."

Fact of the matter is, half the people on these boards don't even know why they hate a person -- they hate them because EVERYONE ELSE does. I think once people on these boards grow up beyond their biological age, they will understand that you can't hold grudges forever. Grudges are for little kids.

I accept your apology at any rate. I hope you feel better soon.