note.

[Locke_boy]

I was restored the other day -- yay. Thank you Stefan.

Over the period of a few hours this night past I worked on graphics for the toadstool helmet, only to find when done that Tyhm had made them already.

Yeah.

So I'm probably not going to be around here much anymore, I'm getting really sick of being a failure.

I've wanted so much to have some power in a kingdom, so I could help make it great, but nothing's happened. I've gotten the rights to move houses. That .. really isn't much.

I've wanted to become powerful. Well, I did, but yet I can still be easily slaughtered by a lot of players.

I've wanted to make graphics for this server, so I could leave a mark, so someone could walk by, and I could say "I made that hat" .. but no .. I've failed at every attempt there too.

I've made so many suggestions, suggestions that I put a lot of thought into, and they've all been ignored, save for one, one. Yes, I suggested that there should be pentagram carpets .. so there were. .. big deal ..

I'm just sick of failure. I've played on this server for nearly 1100 hours of my life, and it's getting me nowhere fast.

I think I should just throw everything I own into a cauldron, and alchemize away ..

.. but no, I messed up there too, because my cauldron that I thought I'd hidden well was stolen, and I'd even left a note with it, saying it was mine ...

.. so I can't, perhaps ..

I just don't know what to do anymore.

.. and keep your rude comments to yourself. I don't need to hear your bull****.

so uh .. bye for now.