Even though I never knew you personally, anyone who let Kaimetsu use their account is cool as they can be
. I'm sorry to learn of your misfortune
. My dad got laid off from his job in November, and being the only one having good luck bringing money in this past year (real estate sucked for my mom) we are currently living off of our stored money. He's hopefully getting a job again real soon and maybe your father can find work as well.
Suicide is never the way to solve anyone's problems. Do you think your parents would really want to go on living off of money they collected from your death? It would be a haunting reminder to them. You just have to take what life throws at you, and I hope that your family can persevere through this.